It's beyond imagination, it's scary and terribly horrifying. There's no exact words that I could easily described on what happened to our most beloved, used-to-be cosy and relaxing paradise.. Mama & Ayah's home - Taman Bukit Mewah, Bukit Antarabangsa.
It's still stunned me and give me this chill, shivering feeling running up my spine whenever I read and saw the photo shoots of the area after the massive landslides hit the place on 6/12/2008. It was wee in the morning when my hp suddenly rang and 'Mama Hp' appeared on the screen.. it's 4am in the morning and automatically I had this funny feeling in my guts signalling that I'm about to hear something bad over the phone. Mama n Ayah balik to B.A the night before after I got back from work. Ntahla rasa macam berat hati je bila mama n ayah nak balik malam tu. In my mind, ah agaknya sbb mama n ayah dah lama stay dgn we all, aku rasa sayu and sedih plak bila diorg nak balik... but our guts would always tell us if something bad gonna happen.. and that is really true..
'Hello Ma..,' I quickly answer the phone within seconds after it rang.. and I could hear some noise at the back with ayah's voice talking to someone.
'Nina.. rumah kita kena landslides... abis la. Mama takut, bunyi kuat... ya Allah..,' Mama's voice was trembling at the other end and I couldn't believed my ears.. Subhanallah..
Stuttered and shaking, I asked back which part?? It's just doesn't sounds right to me cos' the house was not surrounded by nearby hill slopes.. it's like about 500m away from our house.
'Ni belakang rumah aunty Safiyah ke Ma??' Aunty Safiyah is one of Mama's best friend and her house is along the main road which was backed by the hill slopes. Luckily, she and family have moved to HK sometimes last year and currently the house is rented by a western couple.
'Ntah la.. Mama tak berani nak tengok... tanah dah berbukit besar.. jalan tak nampak... ni bunyi lagi ni, Ya Allah! we all dah keluar rumah ni lari... kalau jatuh lagi sekali tak sempat, mati laa..'
'Astaghfirullah hal azim...' I couldn't say further more. By this time I knew the landslides must be very huge and yet still I couldn't visualize or imagine how it was... The slopes is behind rows of bungalows along the main road and our house is separated by a river (longkang besar) and there's another rows of bungalows opposite our home.
In my mind, I never thought the landslides could make it's way and cross over the river.. but the real fact is that it has wiped off everything along it's way in one BIG wave which incredibly move the 5000+ sqft houses 300 metres from it's original location and make it landed on top of the roof of another house!!!
Mama couldn't talked long afraid that the HP battery is running low. Lepas letak telefon, aku tak boleh tidur, in fact hubby pon dah bangun bila dengar my voice shaking while talking over the phone dengan Mama.
Aku on tv, but no news or anything yet .. yelah, benda baru jadi. Aku called Adik tapi phone tak jawab. Aku sms Adik, and after 10 minutes, he called me asking what happened. Try not to stir any panic, I told him what happened but of course anybody would be shocked at this moment.
Immediately I sms Ayah, asking him to update me any news and let me know if he wants to be picked up at the soonest. Knowing all this, the place would be chaotic and full of vehicles in no time and for sure jalan mesti traffic jam gile2 punya towards hulu kelang. The worrying part is that both Mama n Ayah are still tired after staying at my place for 2 weeks sbb tolong aku pindah rumah.. and with this incident happening, I'm sure they are gonna be exhausted and eventually aku risau kalau2 Mama n Ayah jatuh sakit.
Right now Mama n Ayah are staying wit us.. luckily aku dah pindah rumah. So selesa la sikit untuk diorg stay with we all. Alhamdulillah kereta ayah pon dah dpt bawak keluar lepas temporary bridge dah siap dibina. Nonetheless, mama couldn't stop crying whenever she talked about what happened... sapa yang tak sedih. Even aku ni pon, walau pon belum tgk tempat kejadian dgn mata kepala sendiri, I dont think if I have the guts to see the place that I go back to every week without failed and the place where I grew up for the past 16 years.
Tak ada lagi laluan jalan yg dipenuhi pokok2 menghijau, tak ada lagi the familiar rows of houses I used to admire now and then (especially the new green n white house opposite the guard house that gave me so much inspiration for our new house), tak ada lagi jalan yg Mama jogged everyday and the one that I've strolled along with Danial during fine evenings.. and probably we wont have the chance to sleep and stay overnight in the house that brings the most memories of our lives... It's devastatingly sad experience ever and I wonder how the future gonna be when the fine things are no longer there and when things are never gonna be the same anymore...
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Selamat Hari Raya
Selamat Hari Raya dan Maaf Zahir Batin kepada semua umat islam... Although today is the 21st day of Raya, the mood is still there (especially during weekends hehe). Banyak perkara jadi pada musim raya tahun ni. First thing is that Mak Sabar telah pulang ke rahmatullah pada 29/9/2008 exactly 2 days before raya. It's not shocking though cos' arwah has not been well for quite sometimes and her condition deteriorated 2 weeks after puasa. Ayah n Mama went back to Penang 7 days before she passed away to sent Mak Ngah and I didn't get the chance to visit arwah back then cos' I was tight up with my reporting and to travel with Danial over the weekend would be too exhausting. Nevertheless my pray would always go with arwah... sedar tak sedar dalam tempoh 2 tahun ni, 2 of my aunts had passed on and both were Ayah's younger sisters. Sesungguhnya ajal dan maut itu ditangan Allah SWT dan semoga kita sentiasa bersedia.
This year we spent our hari raya in Melaka.. yayy! lama gile tak balik beraya kat Melaka.. 5 years to be exact. After I got married we'll spent our raya in KL (boringgg) and we'll go back to Melaka only after 2nd raya. Kali ni we all balik 1 day before raya... bestttttt dpt berkumpul ramai2 malam raya :) but of course penat skit cos' the day before that we travelled to Penang due to the emergency.. depart at 4.30am and back to KL at 5pm on the same day! Nasib baik Adik was around to take turn to drive from Ayah.
But this year I felt a bit sad towards end of puasa.. hati mula terasa rasa what if aku tak bertemu lagi Ramadhan tahun depan?? puasa tahun ni terasa sgt bermakna buat diri aku n i don't feel that happy to celebrate hari raya because it is sad for me to leave Ramadhan. Mungkin Ramadhan aku kali ni tak sesempurna orang lain but I'm really looking forward and hope to improve my ibadah in next year's Ramadhan.. Semoga aku bertemu dengan Ramadhan tahun hadapan insyaAllah..
This year we spent our hari raya in Melaka.. yayy! lama gile tak balik beraya kat Melaka.. 5 years to be exact. After I got married we'll spent our raya in KL (boringgg) and we'll go back to Melaka only after 2nd raya. Kali ni we all balik 1 day before raya... bestttttt dpt berkumpul ramai2 malam raya :) but of course penat skit cos' the day before that we travelled to Penang due to the emergency.. depart at 4.30am and back to KL at 5pm on the same day! Nasib baik Adik was around to take turn to drive from Ayah.
But this year I felt a bit sad towards end of puasa.. hati mula terasa rasa what if aku tak bertemu lagi Ramadhan tahun depan?? puasa tahun ni terasa sgt bermakna buat diri aku n i don't feel that happy to celebrate hari raya because it is sad for me to leave Ramadhan. Mungkin Ramadhan aku kali ni tak sesempurna orang lain but I'm really looking forward and hope to improve my ibadah in next year's Ramadhan.. Semoga aku bertemu dengan Ramadhan tahun hadapan insyaAllah..
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Sungguh jahat orang itu
aiyoh lama gile tak update.. too much things going on lately n too much things to write about.
So I'll try to summ up all that happened n will elaborate further later:
Mama and Ayah
early last month mama n ayah went to UK to visit abang. it's a yearly activity for both of them to spend 1+ mth over there. but this time around it may take longer cos' abg baru je tukar keje (from Sheffield to Manchester) same goes with kak maya and adlyn yet to get a place at the nursery (fully book). they will only come back early of August, insyaAllah...
Birthday Hubby
on 27/6/2008 was dear hubby's 30th birthday.. I didn't get him anything (well, no need to wait until birthday to give ur love ones special things right??) so during the weekend we all just had a very nice dinner kat Victoria Station.
eeee GERAM
the most hot story skang ni is about my d**n MAID yg telah disyaki MENCURI harta aku! in fact it's not disyaki lagi tp yg confirm is that dia dah kepau duit tabung danial. cil***k punya indon mmg ular kepala dua dia ni. but right now both me n hubby tgh nak cari evidence yg lain since my wedding necklace that went missing last few months could be stolen by her as well. yg buat stress tu aku tak boleh nak bertindak dulu skang ni sbb my parents blm balik n no body can take care of danial kalau we all hambat dia balik indon.
dear hubby pon suruh aku sabar dulu sementara kami mengatur plan B. tapi tu la yg sakit tu, bila balik rumah je aku kena buat cam biasa sedangkan dlm hati ni mmg dah benci btul nak tgk muka minah tu (dah muka buruk... perangai pon buruk isk2). ni la dia manusia, bab keje mmg tade masalah... tp perangai belakang yg aku dgr dari jiran2 - berhutang sana sini, menipu, dan mengata kami sebagai majikan (last few mths she was crying to the other maids konon2nya mak dia mati tp kami ni kejam tak bagi dia balik indon... sedangkan dgn we all dia ckp kakak dia mati! mmg aku doa biar btul2 mak dia yg mati since currently her children are take care by the mother)... huh, sabar2... we are going to send her back by end of the mth.. since gaji bulan June dah byr, I'm not going to pay her July salary.. rasakan.
aku mmg solat hajat setiap malam minta pembalasan yg sebaiknya kepada makhluk yg mengkhianati kami... n i really want my wedding necklace back if she still have it :(
So I'll try to summ up all that happened n will elaborate further later:
Mama and Ayah
early last month mama n ayah went to UK to visit abang. it's a yearly activity for both of them to spend 1+ mth over there. but this time around it may take longer cos' abg baru je tukar keje (from Sheffield to Manchester) same goes with kak maya and adlyn yet to get a place at the nursery (fully book). they will only come back early of August, insyaAllah...
Birthday Hubby
on 27/6/2008 was dear hubby's 30th birthday.. I didn't get him anything (well, no need to wait until birthday to give ur love ones special things right??) so during the weekend we all just had a very nice dinner kat Victoria Station.
eeee GERAM
the most hot story skang ni is about my d**n MAID yg telah disyaki MENCURI harta aku! in fact it's not disyaki lagi tp yg confirm is that dia dah kepau duit tabung danial. cil***k punya indon mmg ular kepala dua dia ni. but right now both me n hubby tgh nak cari evidence yg lain since my wedding necklace that went missing last few months could be stolen by her as well. yg buat stress tu aku tak boleh nak bertindak dulu skang ni sbb my parents blm balik n no body can take care of danial kalau we all hambat dia balik indon.
dear hubby pon suruh aku sabar dulu sementara kami mengatur plan B. tapi tu la yg sakit tu, bila balik rumah je aku kena buat cam biasa sedangkan dlm hati ni mmg dah benci btul nak tgk muka minah tu (dah muka buruk... perangai pon buruk isk2). ni la dia manusia, bab keje mmg tade masalah... tp perangai belakang yg aku dgr dari jiran2 - berhutang sana sini, menipu, dan mengata kami sebagai majikan (last few mths she was crying to the other maids konon2nya mak dia mati tp kami ni kejam tak bagi dia balik indon... sedangkan dgn we all dia ckp kakak dia mati! mmg aku doa biar btul2 mak dia yg mati since currently her children are take care by the mother)... huh, sabar2... we are going to send her back by end of the mth.. since gaji bulan June dah byr, I'm not going to pay her July salary.. rasakan.
aku mmg solat hajat setiap malam minta pembalasan yg sebaiknya kepada makhluk yg mengkhianati kami... n i really want my wedding necklace back if she still have it :(
Saturday, June 7, 2008
Bar Stool Economics
I've found that this article very interesting and totally agree with it lebih2 lagi semenjak dua menjak ni bila negara kita dirudum masalah kenaikan harga barang. I can't help it but to mention about the irrational decision make by our 'beloved' Government to increase the oil price to RM2.70/liter. Anyway, back to this article, it pretty much would reflect what might happen to this country if our 'creative' Government stop using their brain...in fact they just need to stop being creative and just go back to plain common sense please...
Suppose that every day, ten men go out for beer and the bill for all ten comes to $100. If they paid their bill the way we pay our taxes, it would go something like this:
The first four men (the poorest) would pay nothing.
The fifth would pay $1.
The sixth would pay $3.
The seventh would pay $7.
The eighth would pay $12.
The ninth would pay $18.
The tenth man (the richest) would pay $59.
So, that's what they decided to do.
The ten men drank in the bar every day and seemed quite happy with the arrangement, until one day, the owner threw them a curve. "Since you are all such good customers," he said, "I'm going to reduce the cost of your daily beer by $20." Drinks for the ten now cost just $80.
The group still wanted to pay their bill the way we pay our taxes so the first four men were unaffected. They would still drink for free. But what about the other six men - the paying customers? How could they divide the $20 windfall so that everyone would get his 'fair share?' They realized that $20 divided by six is $3.33. But if they subtracted that from everybody's share, then the fifth man and the sixth man would each end up being paid to drink his beer. So, the bar owner suggested that it would be fair to reduce each man's bill by roughly the same amount, and he proceeded to work out the amounts each should pay.
And so:
The fifth man, like the first four, now paid nothing (100% savings).
The sixth now paid $2 instead of $3 (33%savings).
The seventh now pay $5 instead of $7 (28%savings).
The eighth now paid $9 instead of $12 (25% savings).
The ninth now paid $14 instead of $18 (22% savings).
The tenth now paid $49 instead of $59 (16% savings).
Each of the six was better off than before. And the first four continued to drink for free. But once outside the restaurant, the men began to compare their savings.
"I only got a dollar out of the $20,"declared the sixth man. He pointed to the tenth man," but he got $10!" "Yeah, that's right," exclaimed the fifth man. "I only saved a dollar, too. It's unfair that he got ten times more than I!" "That's true!!" shouted the seventh man. "Why should he get $10 back when I got only two? The wealthy get all the breaks!" "Wait a minute," yelled the first four men in unison. "We didn't get anything at all. The system exploits the poor!"
The nine men surrounded the tenth and beat him up.
The next night the tenth man didn't show up for drinks, so the nine sat down and had beers without him. But when it came time to pay the bill, they discovered something important. They didn't have enough money between all of them for even half of the bill!
And that, ladies and gentlemen, journalists and college professors, is how our tax system works. The people who pay the highest taxes get the most benefit from a tax reduction. Tax them too much, attack them for being wealthy, and they just may not show up anymore. In fact, they might start drinking overseas where the atmosphere is somewhat friendlier.
David R. Kamerschen, Ph.D.
Professor of Economics, University of Georgia
For those who understand, no explanation is needed.For those who do not understand, no explanation is possible.
Suppose that every day, ten men go out for beer and the bill for all ten comes to $100. If they paid their bill the way we pay our taxes, it would go something like this:
The first four men (the poorest) would pay nothing.
The fifth would pay $1.
The sixth would pay $3.
The seventh would pay $7.
The eighth would pay $12.
The ninth would pay $18.
The tenth man (the richest) would pay $59.
So, that's what they decided to do.
The ten men drank in the bar every day and seemed quite happy with the arrangement, until one day, the owner threw them a curve. "Since you are all such good customers," he said, "I'm going to reduce the cost of your daily beer by $20." Drinks for the ten now cost just $80.
The group still wanted to pay their bill the way we pay our taxes so the first four men were unaffected. They would still drink for free. But what about the other six men - the paying customers? How could they divide the $20 windfall so that everyone would get his 'fair share?' They realized that $20 divided by six is $3.33. But if they subtracted that from everybody's share, then the fifth man and the sixth man would each end up being paid to drink his beer. So, the bar owner suggested that it would be fair to reduce each man's bill by roughly the same amount, and he proceeded to work out the amounts each should pay.
And so:
The fifth man, like the first four, now paid nothing (100% savings).
The sixth now paid $2 instead of $3 (33%savings).
The seventh now pay $5 instead of $7 (28%savings).
The eighth now paid $9 instead of $12 (25% savings).
The ninth now paid $14 instead of $18 (22% savings).
The tenth now paid $49 instead of $59 (16% savings).
Each of the six was better off than before. And the first four continued to drink for free. But once outside the restaurant, the men began to compare their savings.
"I only got a dollar out of the $20,"declared the sixth man. He pointed to the tenth man," but he got $10!" "Yeah, that's right," exclaimed the fifth man. "I only saved a dollar, too. It's unfair that he got ten times more than I!" "That's true!!" shouted the seventh man. "Why should he get $10 back when I got only two? The wealthy get all the breaks!" "Wait a minute," yelled the first four men in unison. "We didn't get anything at all. The system exploits the poor!"
The nine men surrounded the tenth and beat him up.
The next night the tenth man didn't show up for drinks, so the nine sat down and had beers without him. But when it came time to pay the bill, they discovered something important. They didn't have enough money between all of them for even half of the bill!
And that, ladies and gentlemen, journalists and college professors, is how our tax system works. The people who pay the highest taxes get the most benefit from a tax reduction. Tax them too much, attack them for being wealthy, and they just may not show up anymore. In fact, they might start drinking overseas where the atmosphere is somewhat friendlier.
David R. Kamerschen, Ph.D.
Professor of Economics, University of Georgia
For those who understand, no explanation is needed.For those who do not understand, no explanation is possible.
Sunday, June 1, 2008
Hi's and Goodbyes
Months come and go.. pejam celik dah masuk bulan June... half into year 2008.. ya Allah 6 bulan dah berlalu n it feels just like few weeks back I welcomed year 2008. Lagi 2 bulan Danial akan berumur 2 tahun, wow that's fast! n me n hubby are trying to get pregnant again, n hopefully (really full of hope!) tak lama lagi boleh la bagi Danial adik :) insyaAllah
Well dekat ofis pon things are changing definitely.. this month alone we are going to bid farewell to Fadzli and Sarah.. kurang lagi finance auditor kat GIA, n it means more works for us who left..ouch! But we do have new people joining - Kak Ilia who has joined us couple of weeks ago and another lady (finance auditor) who'll be joining this month.
But anyway to Fadzli and Sarah, take care, all the best and do cherish the moments that we had in GIA - especially AAN (kerja keras n paint ball team.. committee rules!) and KKGIA (hehhee it was fun! pasni boleh la buat alumni bak kata Amar). Adios frens..
Well dekat ofis pon things are changing definitely.. this month alone we are going to bid farewell to Fadzli and Sarah.. kurang lagi finance auditor kat GIA, n it means more works for us who left..ouch! But we do have new people joining - Kak Ilia who has joined us couple of weeks ago and another lady (finance auditor) who'll be joining this month.
But anyway to Fadzli and Sarah, take care, all the best and do cherish the moments that we had in GIA - especially AAN (kerja keras n paint ball team.. committee rules!) and KKGIA (hehhee it was fun! pasni boleh la buat alumni bak kata Amar). Adios frens..
Sang Pencinta
Aku mmg admire M.Nasir dan hasil nukilannya.. Lepas dengar Toi AF6 nyanyi lagu ni, only then aku realize that the lyrics is so deep and meaningful - Sang Pencinta, hanya dia merasa semangat sebuah pengorbanan..
Menanti satu detik pandangan magis mu
Cukup untuk meredakan rindu duniawi
Segala dugaan dan pesona
Menjadi irama indah
Kesakitan ragaku
Berlalu pergi tiada bererti
Pada Mu jua tertuju segala jalan
Pada Mu jua cinta ku serahkan
Kerna hati seorang pencinta
Pandangannya satu
Matanya hanya melihat dia
Yang melihatnya hanya dia kekasihnya
Sang Pencinta
Hanya dia merasa
Semangat sebuah pengorbanan
Sang Pencinta
Hanya Dia mengerti
Persoalan percintaan ini
Cinta ini rela menderita
Agar rindu batinnya terubat
Mengenang dia cinta yang dipuja
Mengenang dia cinta yang diredha
Hanya dia mengenang dia hanya dia
Deliena Cupcakes New Designs!
Some announcement on my cupcakes business.. well I've come out with new designs! Here are some snapshots of my latest cupcakes designs. For more shots, do visit my fotopagesAlhamdulillah I received plenty of orders tgh cuti2 sekolah ni.. in fact some of it I have to refuse cos' last minutes request. Penat jugak cos' almost every nite after work duk mengadap buat cupcakes.
Tapi ni semua rezeki, alhamdulillah my customers base are getting bigger n there even orders for hantaran kahwin.
Anyone interested?? I'm selling the cupcakes at RM30 for a box of 25 pcs. For special packaging request, the price may differ between RM1.20 to RM2 per piece depending on the packaging.
The cupcakes come in 2 flavours - vanilla or chocolate (no mix of flavour in one box).
Please give me at least 3 days notice for orders less than 3 boxes. Kalau order lebih 3 kotak, at least 1-2 wks notice.
So call/sms me up at 013-3619592 or email me at deliena@yahoo.com oh btw, the above prices doesn't include delivery charges... I may deliver under minimal charges or u may self-pick up at my office or areas near my home.
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Pawana
Bermula sebuah cerita
Di zaman dulu kala
Mudahnya sederhana kehidupan
Mereka riang sentiasa dan gembira
Tanpa duka
Waktu berpesta pawana pun melanda
Meresap fikiran dan jiwa
Berubahlah semua
Jadi sombong serta alpa
Semua inginkan kuasa
Rebut dengan sengketa
Yang lemah jadi hamba
Berpecah antara mereka
Musnah di hembus pawana
Begitulah kisah hidup
Dari zaman ke zaman
Pawana menghembus akan hati insan
Cinta musnah dihembus pawana
Keinginan menghancur manusia
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Bling Bling
I had a second piercing on both ears today! I know it's nothing biggie but suddenly I have the 'urge' to do it (maybe after watching Elyana in the new telemovie 'Renjis' at Astro.. she got this nice earring looks like writing of her name on her right ear). Hmmm wonder gak nape dari dulu lg aku tak buat ek.. mmmm (?)
Anyway I just had a simple one on both ears.. well there was a small pain last about few hours but what a heck I've experienced more intense pain during labor.. there is a saying - sakit bersalin adalah sakit ke dua selepas mati. So lepas beranak tu it's like 'so, this is how sakit beranak...boleh la beranak lagi pasni..' well it was painful only Allah knows but it's all worth it :)
Eh lain plak citer masuk... hubby is working night shift this weekend.. tak best aa tade geng nak komen konsert finale AF season 6 malam nanti :(
But mama n ayah is coming tonite yeay!
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Row, Row, Row Your Boat..
Last few weeks me and dear hubby took Danial to Putrajaya wetland for peddling n it was fun! so the following week we went again but this time around tak ada peddling boat so dear hubby decided to row instead. Wah cuaknye rasa masa tu cos' I was not confident that Harmi could row.. when I ask, "Abang boleh ke ni.." he answered (to the boat attendant), "Agak2 kitorg tak balik lepas 1 jam nanti hantar la bot amik kitorg ek," 
wah keras je I duk atas bot tu.. tak berani nak gerak2 takut terbalik plak bot tu.. but towards the end it was fun, n dear hubby punya rowing skill pon not so bad (memula tu mcm huru hara gak la ke kiri ke kanan hehehe... janji tak terbalik ye bang!). So last weekend my parents came n we all ajak ayah n mama to go boating. This time around, ada 2 boats n Danial naik dgn mama n ayah.There are few small islands n we brought a bag of 'dedak' utk bagi fish makan.. wah byk gile ikan so dear hubby ckp nnt nak bawak I gi fishing at the island. It cost RM20 (4 hours) for the boat and RM20 for each fishing rod. Well sounds like fun btw I tak pernah fishing but dear hubby mmg kaki pancing but since got married jarang sgt la dia g fishing.. wah can't wait!
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Old memories..
Waa syoknya it's gonna be a long weekend this week + dear hubby is around :)) today i'm all in a mood for uploading photos n stuff.. masa going through all the files terjumpa la this one short clip of dear Danial when he was only 3 months old... i remember that when i took this clip he has started giggling n it was the time when he used to be so chubby (ee g
eram giler). Just imagine that he was only 3.03 kg when he was born and he's already 7 kg when he was 3 mths old!!! masa tu he has started to wear 6 mths old's clothes. But now he's only 10kg.. kesian anak mama.. he started to loss weight when he was 7 mths old without reason.. he's a fussy eater now but takpe la asalkan anak mama ni sihat :)ouch i tried to load the clip but failed.. nvm will try again later :) Anyway this are few of Danial's photos when he was 2 and 3 mths old
Thursday, May 8, 2008
when everything goes wrong, it's hard to be so strong
fieldwork completion date - 7/3/08
report due - 7/4/08
today's date - 8/5/08 and report is yet to be issued
it's been more than 1 month after the report due date.. i'm late sooo damn late! i felt once and i got up and raise to the challenge. at one point it was almost, so close to what i called a 'victory' but...
i'm so exhausted, penat... body and soul. i can feel the energy draining out from my body. i felt like a bowling pin.. u'll keep on getting hit, u'll fall.. then u stand back..again, got hit then u stand back..over and over again. it's been like this for 2 over months now... but am i that strong to stand back after getting hit so many time???
Ya Allah kurniakan lah aku kekuatan untuk menempuh segala2nya..Aminn
report due - 7/4/08
today's date - 8/5/08 and report is yet to be issued
it's been more than 1 month after the report due date.. i'm late sooo damn late! i felt once and i got up and raise to the challenge. at one point it was almost, so close to what i called a 'victory' but...
i'm so exhausted, penat... body and soul. i can feel the energy draining out from my body. i felt like a bowling pin.. u'll keep on getting hit, u'll fall.. then u stand back..again, got hit then u stand back..over and over again. it's been like this for 2 over months now... but am i that strong to stand back after getting hit so many time???
Ya Allah kurniakan lah aku kekuatan untuk menempuh segala2nya..Aminn
Friday, March 28, 2008
So Tired...
Penatnya rasa this last few days.. alhamdulillah finally my report is out for review.
I had a serious mind-block this time around - big time!!
I went for a training last 2 days by Urban Forum. It is all about critical thinking...
wow I can't believe that all this while I thought that I am an open-minded person, a structured thinker, etc.. 'TETTTT' I was soo wrong... it's just by default that nature made us to be close-minded!
tak caya?? tak caya tanya la saya ;) but seriously I am right..
Very interesting subject matter and no doubt the training cost a lot! lucky that I got chosen (hehehe...)
So my plan tomorrow is to go for Thai body massage with Kak Dilla (waa syok gak la bila kena lipat2 dgn masseuse..memula tu cam sakit skit tp pastu best2..) after office.
My next assignment is deferred until 'only God knows' when, so I'm unassigned!!! mcm leh gi ronggeng jek..ade chan! tp tak best gak sbb tade 'kaki' maa... org lain sume bz jek dah start assignment baru.. but I dont think that I'll be unassigned for too long.
But till then I need to clear off my working papers, exit meeting, ESR, yada2.. (isk2 baru type pon dah terasa how penat it can be to go through all that)
Arghh forget abt work first will ya?? Yayy weekend ni nak bawak Danial g pet exhibition kat mid valley :)) ..now that is something to look forward to..
I had a serious mind-block this time around - big time!!
I went for a training last 2 days by Urban Forum. It is all about critical thinking...
wow I can't believe that all this while I thought that I am an open-minded person, a structured thinker, etc.. 'TETTTT' I was soo wrong... it's just by default that nature made us to be close-minded!
tak caya?? tak caya tanya la saya ;) but seriously I am right..
Very interesting subject matter and no doubt the training cost a lot! lucky that I got chosen (hehehe...)
So my plan tomorrow is to go for Thai body massage with Kak Dilla (waa syok gak la bila kena lipat2 dgn masseuse..memula tu cam sakit skit tp pastu best2..) after office.
My next assignment is deferred until 'only God knows' when, so I'm unassigned!!! mcm leh gi ronggeng jek..ade chan! tp tak best gak sbb tade 'kaki' maa... org lain sume bz jek dah start assignment baru.. but I dont think that I'll be unassigned for too long.
But till then I need to clear off my working papers, exit meeting, ESR, yada2.. (isk2 baru type pon dah terasa how penat it can be to go through all that)
Arghh forget abt work first will ya?? Yayy weekend ni nak bawak Danial g pet exhibition kat mid valley :)) ..now that is something to look forward to..
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Tattoo
No matter what you say about love,
I keep coming back for more,
Keep My head in the fire,
sooner or later I get what I'm asking for
No matter what you say about life
I learn everytime I bleed
The truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger
I gotta let my spirit be free
To admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind
I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothing is broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I love you once needed protection
You´re still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you
I'll always have you
Sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking sides
when I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think I could stop
Admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind
sorry but I've gotta be strong and leave you behind
I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothing is broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I love you once needed protection
You´re still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you
I'll always have you
If I live every moment,
It won't change every moment,
Is still a part of me in you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you marks everything I do.
oooh.. I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothing is broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I love you once needed protection
You´re still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothing is broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I love you once needed protection
You´re still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo,
Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you
I keep coming back for more,
Keep My head in the fire,
sooner or later I get what I'm asking for
No matter what you say about life
I learn everytime I bleed
The truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger
I gotta let my spirit be free
To admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind
I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothing is broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I love you once needed protection
You´re still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you
I'll always have you
Sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking sides
when I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think I could stop
Admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind
sorry but I've gotta be strong and leave you behind
I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothing is broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I love you once needed protection
You´re still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you
I'll always have you
If I live every moment,
It won't change every moment,
Is still a part of me in you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you marks everything I do.
oooh.. I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothing is broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I love you once needed protection
You´re still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothing is broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I love you once needed protection
You´re still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo,
Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you
PD Picnic & Langkawi Holiday
Last month we were all out for a holiday mood. With the long break during CNY, me and hubby decided to go for a picnic at a waterpark or so. So we went to Blue Lagoon @ Port Dickson, mula2 ingat nak pegi Desa WaterPark but then bila pikir balik, Danial is too small for all the water adventure, so rugi la since u paid so much for the facilities but unable to utilize it all. It's been a while since we paid a trip to PD and Danial was so excited over the beach and we keep on laughing when Danial squeals over little baby crabs that dear hubby put on his feet..jpg)
Anyway a week after CNY, we already plan to go to Langkawi for a short vacation. It's kinda last minute plan in fact after dear hubby managed to get his leave approved in January. I was truly looking forward for the break and I am so glad that we did! we took a flight on Wednesday and back on Saturday. It's a 4 days-3 nights stayed at Berjaya Langkawi Resort & Spa (as usual..) and we really enjoyed our stay.... it was sunny hot days but totally perfect for sight-seeing and relaxation. And oh, I really missed the rojak buah at Pantai Kok (highly recommended..). I've started to think that we should be doing this more often..3 times a year perhaps, abang? :))
Deliena Cupcakes is back!!
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Arrghh I'm so lazy and swarmed with works that I couldn't find the time to post new stories. The only time that I found suitable would be after office and at home. But by then is my quality time with Danial and if I dare to on my laptop he'll be pretty much excited over it and that's it.. the laptop is all his! So, months went by and 2008 doesn't make that all much different from previous year.However I'm glad to announce that my cupcakes are back in business and I've received few orders already for the past few weeks. This time around it is much better, bigger - used a different size of baking cups and better one :)
Anyone interested, give me a call at 013-3619592 - Deliena Cupcakes... For Any Occassion..
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